[ junsu pats blindly until he finds minsu's belly, rubbing it with his hand and humming. ]
So soft. Trust me, this doesn't take away from your sex appeal to Sage.
[ his arm moves around minsu's middle to hold him there. it's funny how he doesn't think about him that way as often as he used to, but when prompted to, it comes right back to the surface. of course minsu's still hot. and he can imagine for sage it's a whole other story. ]
You're doing this because you care so much about him and what he's going through. It's instinctual. That's kinda sexy.
[but he still smiles at the reassurance, grateful for it. junsu's good at that, especially lately. minsu blinks at him fondly, eyelids heavy.]
It's like something from the Discovery Channel. [he starts to laugh, thinking about the "mating dance" that sage wasn't too impressed with. but dabbing probably has worn out its welcome.] Maybe we should read Tarzan - was that ever a book?
[ junsu starts playing with minsu's hair, soft fingertips carding through strands, the smell of him the same as the first time they were that close. things are changing, but that doesn't mean they are, right? he's so scared of that, but minsu's gift to him said the opposite of what he was fearing. he's wearing it around his neck right now, even.
but it's still scary. and he'd missed minsu, too. ]
[minsu almost sounds surprised. he's been so quick to be the one giving affection lately, but maybe he can allow himself to be on the receiving end too. just a little bit.]
Me too. [he means it so much, and not just for the sweet feeling of junsu's fingers in his hair. junsu is a part of him and always will be. his eyes drop to the necklace before he grins, holding his own up.] Do you like it? I was worried that matching best friend necklaces might seem a little childish. But I never had anyone to give one to in elementary school!
[ then junsu will keep going with the playing with the hair until his hand falls off, pretty much. minsu must have a lot on his mind, and be worried and stressed still. it's junsu's role as his best friend to provide whatever relief he can.
he grins wide at the necklace around minsu's neck. ]
I love it. I never had anyone like that either. Never had a best friend like you.
[to the part about a best friend. to wearing his necklace every day.]
And thank you for the kitchenware! It must have cost you a lot.
[but there's more to it than just the price. he knows that junsu instinctively knew the right brand to buy. he thinks he probably researched it, read reviews. probably asked a salesperson for help when he went to buy it. the thought of that is as much a gift as anything.]
[ he shakes his head, laughing softly, but some of the humour fades out of it. ]
Anything you want. It's for you to cook for your family, too.
[ his hand stills in minsu's hair, and he worries at his bottom lip. ]
It felt kind of... like it wasn't enough. [ he did to research. he checked what minsu had, he looked up the best sets for a cook, the best brands, what would work best, what chefs liked, what each brand was better known for. he didn't pick something random out of a catalog.
but after seeing minsu's gift, it felt cheap. a little impersonal. he thinks he might have tried to do that, subconsciously. create distance, before the distance created itself further. knowing if they didnt live together, maybe minsu would already have drifted from him. not because minsu is that kind of person, but because of life and circumstances. ]
I'm sorry. Your gift was so thoughtful, I — it made me feel a lot, honey. It was about us.
[he's not sure if junsu meant it any other way, but minsu can't imagine his life without junsu any more than he could imagine it without sage. he worries, sometimes, about one of his boyfriends taking him away. it's a selfish fear, but it still breaks his heart.]
Are you kidding, it was perfect!
[he looks surprised, then smiles and wiggles closer.]
It's what I love doing more than anything. It's how I show people that I love them, when I used to-
[he doesn't need to finish that, and not with junsu of all people, who understands better than anyone.]
That's why I haven't used them yet. I want to use them for us first!
[ junsu doesn't mean to tear up, and he wishes he didn't. but he does, at minsu's earnest surprise that he was worried about his choice of gift, and at the words you are my family. he didn't think he wasn't, but he didn't think he was either, not in such clear terms. and things are changing so much, and he'd been so scared he would end up pushed out of minsu's life.
but he isn't. not that minsu ever made junsu feel that way, it was just a fear, thinking about all the things in minsu's life he doesn't know or understand, how before all this he felt like minsu was a part of him from how intensely they shared the things they felt and the experiences they'd had.
family. that's so big. he sniffles. ]
You're my family too. [ he kisses minsu's cheek, then the other. ] I love you. I would love it if you cooked for me in those.
[ he pulls minsu close, hiding his face against his shoulder. ]
I would really love that. I was just scared, I guess, and then your gift made me feel better about that but not about what I picked out for you.
Ah, don't cry - Kwang and Hojoon won't let us play together anymore if you do that.
[minus teases, dabbing the edges of junsu's wet eye with the edge of sleeve. his own vision gets a little blurry as he does it. more sympathy feelings, he'd guess.]
Hearing that makes me happy. [he sounds as relieved as he does happy, not that he'd been given a reason to doubt it either. but he's been worried too, when he suddenly realized that a day, two days had passed without him seeing or talking to junsu. it was unthinkable once. it feels unnatural even now, and all minsu could think to do to fix it was come running to junsu's room.]
Those twins don't have anything on how close we are!
[he squeezes him, then takes his turn stroking a hand against junsu's hair.]
[ junsu giggles and lets minsu wipe at his eyes, sniffing but no letting any more wetness gather. it's just a joke, something to make junsu laugh, and it works. ]
Okay, no crying. [ that's not a promise, because he's got waterworks for eyes. but it's an attempt!
he nudges minsu lightly, making playful eyes at him. ] We have our own kind of sexiness, anyway.
[ he'd like to see them beat their awkward, earnest charm!!!
junsu sobers up a little, cupping minsu's cheek with his hand. he feels better. a lot better. he missed minsu. ]
Thank you. I know your life is — changing in a lot of ways. I want to be there for you. Even if it's scary to watch you live all these things I haven't.
[he's still hot! he could still turn heads! the fact that he's not looking to do that anymore is beside the point. and minsu knows for sure that junsu could too.
he smiles at the touch against his cheek, turning a little more serious.]
Some things are never going to change. [he will always love junsu, and always need him to be a big part of his life. but he understands what he's saying too.] I wish you were going through it with me. Not that - you're probably not ready for that. [minsu wasn't either until it happened. he groans before pressing his face against him.] Can't you get a girlfriend too and rely a little too much on the rhythm method? I'd really appreciate it!
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it says that only a virgin can touch one though. does that seem kind of weird to you?
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i always wondered if it wasnt just a way to say they werent real, like obviously no one has touched one because people have sex
but some people dont, i guess...
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but then they go and pair up virgins with this creature that has a huge phallic symbol right between its eyes....
it's the kind of thing that keeps me awake at night.
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it doesnt make a lot of sense either way! people care about that stuff too much
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ah, i miss you. everything's been so crazy lately.
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im sorry if i havent been around as much
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but i miss the way things were sometimes too. i want to crawl into bed and read with you again.
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you can. just say the word, honey.
geun really trying to jump in wherever he can....
this is the hustle
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I wore new pajamas, just for you.
[he sticks a leg up to show him.]
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[ junsu grins, scooting over and patting the spot next to him on the bed, giggling at the display for his pjs. ]
They're really cute, just like you.
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[minsu smiles before crawling into his bed, head finding junsu's shoulder the way it always does.]
Sympathy eating. And not as much exercise. [he sighs dramatically.] Goodbye sex appeal.
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So soft. Trust me, this doesn't take away from your sex appeal to Sage.
[ his arm moves around minsu's middle to hold him there. it's funny how he doesn't think about him that way as often as he used to, but when prompted to, it comes right back to the surface. of course minsu's still hot. and he can imagine for sage it's a whole other story. ]
You're doing this because you care so much about him and what he's going through. It's instinctual. That's kinda sexy.
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[but he still smiles at the reassurance, grateful for it. junsu's good at that, especially lately. minsu blinks at him fondly, eyelids heavy.]
It's like something from the Discovery Channel. [he starts to laugh, thinking about the "mating dance" that sage wasn't too impressed with. but dabbing probably has worn out its welcome.] Maybe we should read Tarzan - was that ever a book?
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[ junsu starts playing with minsu's hair, soft fingertips carding through strands, the smell of him the same as the first time they were that close. things are changing, but that doesn't mean they are, right? he's so scared of that, but minsu's gift to him said the opposite of what he was fearing. he's wearing it around his neck right now, even.
but it's still scary. and he'd missed minsu, too. ]
I'm happy you're here.
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[minsu almost sounds surprised. he's been so quick to be the one giving affection lately, but maybe he can allow himself to be on the receiving end too. just a little bit.]
Me too. [he means it so much, and not just for the sweet feeling of junsu's fingers in his hair. junsu is a part of him and always will be. his eyes drop to the necklace before he grins, holding his own up.] Do you like it? I was worried that matching best friend necklaces might seem a little childish. But I never had anyone to give one to in elementary school!
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he grins wide at the necklace around minsu's neck. ]
I love it. I never had anyone like that either. Never had a best friend like you.
[ he smiles, fond and loving. ]
I'm gonna wear it every day.
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[to the part about a best friend. to wearing his necklace every day.]
And thank you for the kitchenware! It must have cost you a lot.
[but there's more to it than just the price. he knows that junsu instinctively knew the right brand to buy. he thinks he probably researched it, read reviews. probably asked a salesperson for help when he went to buy it. the thought of that is as much a gift as anything.]
What do you want me to cook for you with it?
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[ he shakes his head, laughing softly, but some of the humour fades out of it. ]
Anything you want. It's for you to cook for your family, too.
[ his hand stills in minsu's hair, and he worries at his bottom lip. ]
It felt kind of... like it wasn't enough. [ he did to research. he checked what minsu had, he looked up the best sets for a cook, the best brands, what would work best, what chefs liked, what each brand was better known for. he didn't pick something random out of a catalog.
but after seeing minsu's gift, it felt cheap. a little impersonal. he thinks he might have tried to do that, subconsciously. create distance, before the distance created itself further. knowing if they didnt live together, maybe minsu would already have drifted from him. not because minsu is that kind of person, but because of life and circumstances. ]
I'm sorry. Your gift was so thoughtful, I — it made me feel a lot, honey. It was about us.
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[he's not sure if junsu meant it any other way, but minsu can't imagine his life without junsu any more than he could imagine it without sage. he worries, sometimes, about one of his boyfriends taking him away. it's a selfish fear, but it still breaks his heart.]
Are you kidding, it was perfect!
[he looks surprised, then smiles and wiggles closer.]
It's what I love doing more than anything. It's how I show people that I love them, when I used to-
[he doesn't need to finish that, and not with junsu of all people, who understands better than anyone.]
That's why I haven't used them yet. I want to use them for us first!
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but he isn't. not that minsu ever made junsu feel that way, it was just a fear, thinking about all the things in minsu's life he doesn't know or understand, how before all this he felt like minsu was a part of him from how intensely they shared the things they felt and the experiences they'd had.
family. that's so big. he sniffles. ]
You're my family too. [ he kisses minsu's cheek, then the other. ] I love you. I would love it if you cooked for me in those.
[ he pulls minsu close, hiding his face against his shoulder. ]
I would really love that. I was just scared, I guess, and then your gift made me feel better about that but not about what I picked out for you.
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[minus teases, dabbing the edges of junsu's wet eye with the edge of sleeve. his own vision gets a little blurry as he does it. more sympathy feelings, he'd guess.]
Hearing that makes me happy. [he sounds as relieved as he does happy, not that he'd been given a reason to doubt it either. but he's been worried too, when he suddenly realized that a day, two days had passed without him seeing or talking to junsu. it was unthinkable once. it feels unnatural even now, and all minsu could think to do to fix it was come running to junsu's room.]
Those twins don't have anything on how close we are!
[he squeezes him, then takes his turn stroking a hand against junsu's hair.]
They might be sexier though. I'm not sure.
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Okay, no crying. [ that's not a promise, because he's got waterworks for eyes. but it's an attempt!
he nudges minsu lightly, making playful eyes at him. ] We have our own kind of sexiness, anyway.
[ he'd like to see them beat their awkward, earnest charm!!!
junsu sobers up a little, cupping minsu's cheek with his hand. he feels better. a lot better. he missed minsu. ]
Thank you. I know your life is — changing in a lot of ways. I want to be there for you. Even if it's scary to watch you live all these things I haven't.
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[he's still hot! he could still turn heads! the fact that he's not looking to do that anymore is beside the point. and minsu knows for sure that junsu could too.
he smiles at the touch against his cheek, turning a little more serious.]
Some things are never going to change. [he will always love junsu, and always need him to be a big part of his life. but he understands what he's saying too.] I wish you were going through it with me. Not that - you're probably not ready for that. [minsu wasn't either until it happened. he groans before pressing his face against him.] Can't you get a girlfriend too and rely a little too much on the rhythm method? I'd really appreciate it!
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