[minsu is still just minsu. he's a reservoir for magic, but it's not his. he's not special, he just fell in love with someone who is. minsu himself is still just the slightly awkward boy who loves his friends and likes to show that love through hugs and his food.
he's found peace with that. he's happy about it.
junsu's question, good and fair as it is, brings a sheepish smile to his lips.]
Ah, the swamp will protect them no matter what. It would pop me like a balloon first!
[that was a joke. in hindsight, not a very funny one. and not an untrue statement to make.]
It could be just a small thing. It shouldn't affect them at all. If anything, some of your energy could go to the baby.
[ he takes minsu's hand in both of his, just holding it to his chest. ]
If something happens to you. And you were gone.
[ junsu would never be able to live with himself. sage would probably grow to hate him. he wouldn't get to have this precious baby in his life because he would know out of selfishness and greed, he took minsu away from them.
granted, something could happen to junsu, too. maybe he'd also be gone. ]
[minsu blinks a few times. nothing so terrible could happen, could it? it would come from a place of the purest intentions. but sometimes those things do go wrong...
he looks at the worry on junsu's face, and it's hard not so share some of it.]
After the baby is born, then. When things go back to normal. I can even ask Sage!
[ especially if they ask sage for help, then he's far less worried. sage will know what to do, and how to make it safe. they could really have a special bond, and it wouldn't be a scary, risk filled thing.
[ junsu kisses minsu's forehead, then brushes his hair with his fingers. ]
Of course. I always do. That's why I'm not more mature... I've just always been scared something will happen to me, and now I'm scared something will happen to you and the people you love.
[ he's scared something will happen to hojoon and kwang, too, but differently, because they have powers and strengths that minsu and junsu don't have. this isn't maturity, it's the same fear, and selfishness, too. if he were to do this with minsu and something went wrong, who would sage blame if junsu wasn't hurt but minsu was? and junsu would blame himself, too, infinitely so. ]
You're going to mature a lot, raising a baby. Do you think it's going to be a girl or a boy?
It still sounds like an adult kind of worry to me.
[his childhood wasn't completely carefree. minsu was always worried about pleasing his father, or more likely displeasing him. but he was innocent of some thoughts until he reached a certain age. losing people that he cared about seemed so far away, not like something that could just happen at any time.
he would worry about it a lot more now if it weren't for all the spells and charms and people around them, helping keeping them all safe.]
I think it'll just give me someone else to play with! And as long as it's healthy, I don't care. I really don't! [he emphasizes this before continuing.] But a little girl would be sweet.
[ junsu smiles faintly at the image of sage and minsu caring for a baby girl, of putting her in pig tails and little dresses, of watching her be as kick ass as sage witty as he is, but with minsu's kindness and love.
it's a lot. it would be perfect, and a little overwhelming. ]
It'll be healthy. We're all looking after Sage and the baby, and you're going to make her the best meals.
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he's found peace with that. he's happy about it.
junsu's question, good and fair as it is, brings a sheepish smile to his lips.]
Ah, the swamp will protect them no matter what. It would pop me like a balloon first!
[that was a joke. in hindsight, not a very funny one. and not an untrue statement to make.]
It could be just a small thing. It shouldn't affect them at all. If anything, some of your energy could go to the baby.
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[ he takes minsu's hand in both of his, just holding it to his chest. ]
If something happens to you. And you were gone.
[ junsu would never be able to live with himself. sage would probably grow to hate him. he wouldn't get to have this precious baby in his life because he would know out of selfishness and greed, he took minsu away from them.
granted, something could happen to junsu, too. maybe he'd also be gone. ]
It doesn't sound like it would be small.
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he looks at the worry on junsu's face, and it's hard not so share some of it.]
After the baby is born, then. When things go back to normal. I can even ask Sage!
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Okay. We can try after.
[ especially if they ask sage for help, then he's far less worried. sage will know what to do, and how to make it safe. they could really have a special bond, and it wouldn't be a scary, risk filled thing.
junsu smiles. ]
I would like that.
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Thank you. For worrying about me.
[and not just him, but the baby and sage too.]
You being the voice of reason makes me feel like you'v matured without me...
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Of course. I always do. That's why I'm not more mature... I've just always been scared something will happen to me, and now I'm scared something will happen to you and the people you love.
[ he's scared something will happen to hojoon and kwang, too, but differently, because they have powers and strengths that minsu and junsu don't have. this isn't maturity, it's the same fear, and selfishness, too. if he were to do this with minsu and something went wrong, who would sage blame if junsu wasn't hurt but minsu was? and junsu would blame himself, too, infinitely so. ]
You're going to mature a lot, raising a baby. Do you think it's going to be a girl or a boy?
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[his childhood wasn't completely carefree. minsu was always worried about pleasing his father, or more likely displeasing him. but he was innocent of some thoughts until he reached a certain age. losing people that he cared about seemed so far away, not like something that could just happen at any time.
he would worry about it a lot more now if it weren't for all the spells and charms and people around them, helping keeping them all safe.]
I think it'll just give me someone else to play with! And as long as it's healthy, I don't care. I really don't! [he emphasizes this before continuing.] But a little girl would be sweet.
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[ junsu smiles faintly at the image of sage and minsu caring for a baby girl, of putting her in pig tails and little dresses, of watching her be as kick ass as sage witty as he is, but with minsu's kindness and love.
it's a lot. it would be perfect, and a little overwhelming. ]
It'll be healthy. We're all looking after Sage and the baby, and you're going to make her the best meals.