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I think all of those things are pretty and wonderful. Fins, wings, ears and tails.
[ he grabs his pillow to hold onto it as he sits and they chat. he gestures. ]
You can borrow a book if you want, sugar.
[ he smiles, then scratches the back of his head. ]
Any kind. I grew up wanting magic to be real. Magical creatures, or magic like with wands, or anything like that.
[ he grabs his pillow to hold onto it as he sits and they chat. he gestures. ]
You can borrow a book if you want, sugar.
[ he smiles, then scratches the back of his head. ]
Any kind. I grew up wanting magic to be real. Magical creatures, or magic like with wands, or anything like that.
[ junsu blinks. and then blinks again. and then his eyes are shining with tears. ]
You — You want that? You want me to be yours like that? [ his voice his thick with tears, but happy ones. he didn't think — he never thought he could hold such a special place in someone's heart, never thought in a place like the house that someone might want him for themselves.
least of all minsu. minsu, who understands and knows him better than anyone. minsu, who's the safest person he knows. minsu, who's very presence and existence makes years of junsu's life feel worth it.
he holds onto minsu more tightly, pulling him down against him to hug him. ]
Yes. Yes, I'll yours and yours alone, Minsu. [ he starts pressing sloppy kisses all over his face, sniffling as he does, laughing wetly too. ] I already am, in my heart.
You — You want that? You want me to be yours like that? [ his voice his thick with tears, but happy ones. he didn't think — he never thought he could hold such a special place in someone's heart, never thought in a place like the house that someone might want him for themselves.
least of all minsu. minsu, who understands and knows him better than anyone. minsu, who's the safest person he knows. minsu, who's very presence and existence makes years of junsu's life feel worth it.
he holds onto minsu more tightly, pulling him down against him to hug him. ]
Yes. Yes, I'll yours and yours alone, Minsu. [ he starts pressing sloppy kisses all over his face, sniffling as he does, laughing wetly too. ] I already am, in my heart.
[minsu's scared too, even if he knows that nothing could really come between them if they didn't let it. that they could still make time for each other in between boyfriends and babies. even if he knows that he's still the same person that he's always been, and believes that junsu is too.
but this bond would be something of a...not a shortcut, necessarily. but a commitment. a way of minsu saying that he's as serious about their relationship as he is about the other big one in his life. it could be something that they both take comfort from.]
Yeah. I mean, basically. [basically.] I know the book that it's in. We'd just have to tweak it for us.
but this bond would be something of a...not a shortcut, necessarily. but a commitment. a way of minsu saying that he's as serious about their relationship as he is about the other big one in his life. it could be something that they both take comfort from.]
Yeah. I mean, basically. [basically.] I know the book that it's in. We'd just have to tweak it for us.
[ junsu is quiet another moment. he wants this, really. it's a promise, and a bond that wouldn't be breakable. he wouldn't have to be scared. he would live knowing minsu wants him in his life forever. it would be comforting.
but magic is so volatile. in the stories he read it was as well, but he's grown to see it for himself, grown to fear it as he sought refuge in the strongest people he could find all while being aware of his helplessness against their strengths.
minsu is more than just minsu now. ]</small. If it... if it goes wrong, what would happen to Sage and your baby?
but magic is so volatile. in the stories he read it was as well, but he's grown to see it for himself, grown to fear it as he sought refuge in the strongest people he could find all while being aware of his helplessness against their strengths.
minsu is more than just minsu now. ]</small. If it... if it goes wrong, what would happen to Sage and your baby?
[minsu is still just minsu. he's a reservoir for magic, but it's not his. he's not special, he just fell in love with someone who is. minsu himself is still just the slightly awkward boy who loves his friends and likes to show that love through hugs and his food.
he's found peace with that. he's happy about it.
junsu's question, good and fair as it is, brings a sheepish smile to his lips.]
Ah, the swamp will protect them no matter what. It would pop me like a balloon first!
[that was a joke. in hindsight, not a very funny one. and not an untrue statement to make.]
It could be just a small thing. It shouldn't affect them at all. If anything, some of your energy could go to the baby.
he's found peace with that. he's happy about it.
junsu's question, good and fair as it is, brings a sheepish smile to his lips.]
Ah, the swamp will protect them no matter what. It would pop me like a balloon first!
[that was a joke. in hindsight, not a very funny one. and not an untrue statement to make.]
It could be just a small thing. It shouldn't affect them at all. If anything, some of your energy could go to the baby.
[ a kind of doubt shined in his eyes for a moment but disappeared as quickly as it came. ] My ears and tail aren't as pretty as some.
[ he used to believe they were but thought otherwise nowadays. the rough travels changed a lot of his opinions, actually. ]
Oh, wow, thanks. [ a genuine smile filled his face. ]
How do you feel now knowing it is real? It can be a shock sometimes and not always a great one.
[ he used to believe they were but thought otherwise nowadays. the rough travels changed a lot of his opinions, actually. ]
Oh, wow, thanks. [ a genuine smile filled his face. ]
How do you feel now knowing it is real? It can be a shock sometimes and not always a great one.
yeah, that'd be nice.
[ You'll find him in bed, which is not extremely unusual. The unusual thing is that the curtains are drawn over the big, round window in the room, leaving it in a semi-darkness, like Kwang is feeling mildly emo.
Oops. ]
[ You'll find him in bed, which is not extremely unusual. The unusual thing is that the curtains are drawn over the big, round window in the room, leaving it in a semi-darkness, like Kwang is feeling mildly emo.
Oops. ]
[ junsu arrives quickly into the room, but halts when he sees the curtains. kwang must be feeling a little under the weather. he closes the door behind him gently. ]
Baby. Are you okay?
[ he's thinking maybe he's got a cold, though he doesn't know how easy it is for kwang to get sick. he sits on the edge of the bed, reaching to play with kwang's hair. ]
Need anything?
Baby. Are you okay?
[ he's thinking maybe he's got a cold, though he doesn't know how easy it is for kwang to get sick. he sits on the edge of the bed, reaching to play with kwang's hair. ]
Need anything?
Mm, I'm okay.
[ Physically, anyway. He pushes off the covers a little, creating some space for Junsu. ]
Just a hug, please?
[ He'll talk. In a second, he'll start talking. It might not be easy, especially to Junsu, but he doesn't want to hide anything from him. With a sigh, he forces himself to start. ]
I guess you could say that Hojoon... rejected me. I guess my ego and my heart have taken a bit of a blow.
[ Physically, anyway. He pushes off the covers a little, creating some space for Junsu. ]
Just a hug, please?
[ He'll talk. In a second, he'll start talking. It might not be easy, especially to Junsu, but he doesn't want to hide anything from him. With a sigh, he forces himself to start. ]
I guess you could say that Hojoon... rejected me. I guess my ego and my heart have taken a bit of a blow.
[ junsu's heart twinges and breaks a little for kwang. he doesn't want him to be hurt, but he understands that he is, and knows that joon would not have wanted to hurt kwang either, but prefers to be honest than embark on something that might be more hurtful in the end.
he slides into the bed and gets his arms around kwang without being asked twice, pressing his lips to his forehead. ]
I'm sorry, Kwang.
[ he wishes he could say hojoon might change his mind, but he doesn't want to say anything that might give kwang hope, or encourage him, or make things more fraught between his boyfriends than they already are. in a perfect world they would get along and fall in love. but things are never that simple. they're in this world, not the perfect one. ]
I love you. I know he didn't like having to upset you.
he slides into the bed and gets his arms around kwang without being asked twice, pressing his lips to his forehead. ]
I'm sorry, Kwang.
[ he wishes he could say hojoon might change his mind, but he doesn't want to say anything that might give kwang hope, or encourage him, or make things more fraught between his boyfriends than they already are. in a perfect world they would get along and fall in love. but things are never that simple. they're in this world, not the perfect one. ]
I love you. I know he didn't like having to upset you.
I know it's a very childish reaction to have -
[ Kwang cuts himself off, sighing in Junsu's embrace, instantly burrowing into it, eyes closing. ]
It just seemed like there was some hope, for a while. And I should have known better than to hold on to it. I'm sorry, I truly didn't want to burden you with this, I know it must be awkward for you, and I apologize. I just. Wanted your company, more than anything.
[ Later, he'll probably talk to Ten, too. But he thinks Ten might try to say something, or do something, change Hojoon's mind, and it might not really the appropriate thing to do. ]
I'm sure he didn't. I didn't mean to make difficult for him, either. I imagine I made him feel quite confused for a while.
[ Kwang cuts himself off, sighing in Junsu's embrace, instantly burrowing into it, eyes closing. ]
It just seemed like there was some hope, for a while. And I should have known better than to hold on to it. I'm sorry, I truly didn't want to burden you with this, I know it must be awkward for you, and I apologize. I just. Wanted your company, more than anything.
[ Later, he'll probably talk to Ten, too. But he thinks Ten might try to say something, or do something, change Hojoon's mind, and it might not really the appropriate thing to do. ]
I'm sure he didn't. I didn't mean to make difficult for him, either. I imagine I made him feel quite confused for a while.
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