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i know, i know! it's been happening for a couple of weeks now, but. you know how our imagination is.

['our'. like they share the exact same one.]

it's like...power surges. i meant to tell you about them the other day, but then i remembered you and kwang had gone to the treehouse.

[and while minsu's developed something of a habit of interrupting...he wouldn't do it purposely.]

Edited 2018-11-19 15:47 (UTC)

thanks for thinking of that, honey, but if youre scared or worried its ok to talk to me

so its like when you get a shock?

it's like that, only it doesn't hurt the way a shock does.

i wonder if sage and i brought back a ghost from the swamp or something.

so it doesnt hurt you? it doesnt feel like something that means to harm you?

maybe its a ghost that wants a friend

no, it doesn't feel like that really.

its just

i think its me. i think i'm the ghost

you think you... what do you mean?

i did think that the kitchen might be haunted at first. but now...i think i'm the one causing them. sage's magic is flowing through me. i think it's doing these things to keep from hurting me.

sage's magic? you have his magic?

i guess it would make sense its trying to protect you

i don't have it, not really.

we did a ritual, it bound us together so that his magic wouldn't be able to tell us apart, so it could flow through me without hurting me. because that...that was always a possibility. he's hurt people before, and i didn't want him to have to always worry about me too.

maybe it just has to vent sometimes. like a magical burp.

ah, thats amazing. now he can keep you safe and share with you

it sounds like that might be it. like a burp. if you learned how to help it and control it... it kind of is like you have his magic

i'd help it any way that i could, it's-

i hope this isn't why he's been getting sick lately. maybe i'm channeling too much of it!

you think? i hope he feels better... but if it was that he would probably know, right? and tell you?

maybe, but maybe not. he knew this meant a lot to me. i was always afraid that he would get scared and push me away.

but i would never risk him for it!

im sure he'd know you wouldnt want this if it meant he had to be in pain and sick. maybe you just need to learn how to control it

do you think i'd really be able to do that?

of course

you can do anything, honey. sage could help you too

ok! if you say it, then i believe it.

magic isn't what i imagined. i mean, the sex magic part was great! but since then things have been a little weird.

sex magic... that sounds kind of intense

can i make it less weird somehow? im sorry. its probably just an adaptation period, baby

it is. a lot more than i thought it would be.

just talking to you makes it less weird! it's another one of those times when you're the only one who'd understand.

how was it different from usual? im curious

if theres ever anything i can do... im here for you. i hope ill be someone who can keep understanding. i dont really know much about controlling magic

you can't really just let go. i mean, you can. you're supposed to! but it's more....purposeful too. sage had me start reading about tantric stuff, about being aware of your breathing and fully in the moment.

i'm not sure it really can be...at least not completely. maybe that's what sage was always worried about.

and you'll always be able to understand me, we're like peas in a pod.

that sounds like it requires way more focus than i have during that kind of fun

but it'll keep you safe, right? if it keeps you safe, then it's the best thing that could happen.

we are. youre right!

yeah. honestly, i thought it would be a lot more like something you'd see on animal planet! i'd do it again though.

maybe you could help me.

its worth it, right? you get something incredible. and now youre bonded to sage

in whatever you think i might be able to help, honey, i want to help

anything would be worth that.

i know i could ask some of the others but. i don't know, i just feel weird about it. and you've read so many books, you probably know as much as anyone anyway!

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