[ Here, after your next little trip away in the woods, Junsu, do find one Yoo Myung barging in your room and immediately faceplanting in your bed, burying his face in a pillow to let out a soft, soft screech.
And then he speaks, muffled into the pillow: ]
I fucking kid you not, I have had three consecutive wet dreams last night. All three woke me up. My wrist hurts, and it's only partly because of the piano.
[ Myung raises a hand - but not his head - to give Junsu the finger, even though he knew very well that by coming here and saying that, he was going to be mocked. He deserves it, too, and it's not like he's actually> angry or anything. He's just... horny. And a little desperate. And he won't tell Dal that, because then Dal will feel pressured into doing stuff he's not ready for yet.
Finally, Myung turns his head, squinting at Junsu. There's no heat behind his look, or his words. ]
Yet. I've gone through so much lube. [ He sighs, relaxing a little. ] Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change a thing about him. And the stuff we do is - well it's hot, even if it's super Victorian. I'm just. Worked up.
[ he nudges myung's leg, his laughter dying down to soft chuckles. he ruffles myung's hair, flopping down onto the mattress next to him, heaving a great sigh. ]
Think about how amazing it'll be to have sex again after you've held off a while. It'll really make it special.
[ Myung turns his head back to groan into the pillow, before finally, properly settling on his side to be able to speak and look at Junsu. ]
I know. I know, it's just. I want him so bad, that's all. We've done some things, you know, but it's always - it's like you're really really thirsty, and you get a sip of water, and then you have to watch the bottle. You can touch the bottle and caress the bottle and kiss the bottle but you can't -
[ Myung slaps a hand over his face, grunting in embarrassment. ] That's a terrible analogy, but you get what I mean.
[ Peeking at Junsu from between his fingertips, Myung hums. ]
Anyway, 'nough about me. How are you? You disappeared again for a few days.
Yeah, I get it. At least you know you'll have more, eventually.
[ it's not a situation like he can't have dal because dal doesn't want him or is with someone else. it's not the same, but he knows what it's like to take a sip of what being with someone might be like, maybe multiple sips, but then never be able to drink from that same bottle again.
the thought isn't quite as upsetting as it once might have been. it's okay. he got a taste in the first place. and he's happy myung will get to have that whole bottle.
Yeah. Yeah, I do - I kept on telling him that I didn't want to assume, you know? That he'll get to that point of wanting at some point. But then he told me point blank I could, and basically should assume it's happening. So. Yeah.
[ And that was even before their confessions and some of the things they've done, and - yeah. Myung wants to tell Junsu, about the I love you's and the way it made his chest explode, but then Junsu talks again and Myung grins. ]
You got whisked away by both your boyfriends? Fuck me, you're lucky. Was it good?
Of course it's happening. He didn't get sex ed for nothing! [ not to say... anyone who gets that education will want sex, but clearly dal had questions, and junsu might not have been there for the questions part of the ordeal at first but he was there when minsu explained.
dal was clearly curious. and wanting to know things so he could navigate this and do it in a safe and comfortable way.
his face softens at the mention of both boyfriends, and thinking back on his time with kwang. there were hot and heavy times, but also... a lot of things were said, and the air was cleared further between them even when junsu didn't think anything was muddled, so. it was really nice. ]
No, he sure didn't... [ Myung trails off, sounding quite conspiratorial, like something did happen, and, well. Technically, something did, even if it didn't exactly involve them touching each other. It was still very, very far from innocent.
Myung looks at Junsu, smiling as he reaches out to poke at Junsu's thigh, playfully. ]
Talked, yeah, I'm sure that's what you did the most of. Talking. [ He chuckles to himself. ] I might be saying that because I'm currently in the state I am, but hey, if you did mostly talk, I'm impressed in your self-restraint. Excuse my saying that, but hey, Kwang's hot.
[ But, actually - ] How would you rate the treehouse?
Shut up! We did both. [ they can have a hard time keeping their hands off each other, but junsu doesn't think either of them can be blamed. ]
And I know he's hot! [ he laughs, giving myung a little shove. as if he needs to apologize for saying that. he would be more offended if myung said kwang wasn't attractive at all. he would seriously question myung's tastes.
he flops onto the bed, his arm over myung's back. ]
Like, for romance or sex? Well, it's a ten out of ten any way.
[ Myung just laughs, satisfied that he was able to tease back, if only a little. He knows he's a lot more pathetic looking than Junsu is, right now. But that's because Junsu is having lots of probably excellent sex, and Myung is not.
Not yet. He just needs to keep telling himself that, and he'll be fine. He hums, able to look at Junsu much easier now that he's lying by his side. He reaches out, fiddling with the collar of Junsu's shirt. ]
I've been thinking I'd like to go, with Dal. Just need to convince Bam to give us a whole day. Maybe two. I feel guilty about it, you know? Like I'm asking him to stop living his life.
Don't feel guilty. Dal should get to live out his life, too.
[ junsu thinks it isn't fair that bam gets to more than dal, even though he doesn't think bam should just disappear either. he wanted them to get an equal chance to live, but dal was kind of reluctant to hear any advice or options when he tried.
he figures he might just not understand just how tricky it is for them, maybe.
but he wants myung happy, and he wants bam and dal to find a balance that works for them. ]
Maybe if you ask for three days you can strike a deal and Bam gets three days. Equivalent exchange.
[ Dal might be a lot more open to such suggestions, nowadays. He's a lot more willing to live, these days, and not just let Bam do it. But it's important to Dal to know that Bam is okay with it, whatever they agree on. ]
Three days? Wow, I was going to ask for like, a day, a day and a half.
[ He gives Junsu a look. ]
And I don't want Dal to be gone for three days afterwards. That'd suck. [ He hums. ] Gotta think about it. [ With another look, Myung raises an eyebrow. ]
[ thats true. if he asks for a week with dal, he has to go a week without him, and that seems unlivable for junsu. he's sure it would be hard to live with for myung, too. ]
You'll figure it out. You're both crafty.
[ anyone who has survived this far is, really.
he smiles, looking down at his fingers. it makes his heart race to think about. and he wants to cover his face. and giggle. and he feels like a little girl. ]
[ Myung nods, before he settles closer to Junsu, draping a leg over his, getting himself comfy as Junsu makes that face, looking so happy. ]
God, you’re cute.
[ And he is, and Myung is so glad things are working out. He used to think Junsu was this mysterious guy, and it made him even hotter, but as he learned to know him better, it became obvious just how soft he is, how gentle, how much he yearns for this kind of love.
Myung sighs contently, pressing his nose against the curve of Junsu’s shoulder. ]
Dal said I live you, too. [ He doesn’t know why he doesn’t say that they both said it. ]
[ junsu laughs, delighted. he's not really surprised. just happy for them. he assumes it's a good thing, or this would've been the order of the day before myung's whining about not getting laid. ]
That's amazing. [ he slings an arm around myung's middle, tucking himself close against him. it feels pretty natural to do this, after all. they've been much closer before, and junsu's a touchy, affectionate person. ]
It's kind of huge, given he's not done much, right?
live? LIVE? gdi autocorrect that's why i shouldn't phone tag
[ Myung hides his face in Junsu's neck, feeling his cheeks heat up. ]
And he's so - measured. He thinks about things very carefully before he speaks, you know? So I knew he had thought about those words for a while before saying it, and I believed it instantly. It's not like it's been before.
[ Like when Dae said it for the first time and Myung just took it as Dae teasing him. Dae being Dae, cute and effusive and too much sometimes. But Dal wasn't the same. He looks up. ]
I said it back. [ Which is even more of a big deal, all things considered. For Myung, anyway. ]
[ he just has to say it, with the way myung is hiding against his neck. it's been easy, to go from what they were to this, because they were friends, too. not just sleeping together. junsu is relieved about that.
and even more relieved to hear myung is letting himself have this. it's good for him. junsu hopes letting someone love him will help him stay away from fights and hating himself and thinking about what dae did. ]
[ In a way, it's the same relationship, just - one element taken out from it. Maybe Myung wasn't worried from the beginning because he's gone through it before. With Minsu, with Sage, with Jiho. He's managed with them, and he's managing with Junsu. ]
Mm. Yeah, it felt like it. But it felt easy, too. I didn't hesitate, not like I have before.
[ He nudges Junsu. ]
Hey, now that you're survival expert and all, you should take me camping. I've never been, and the military doesn't count.
[ it's nice for that moment to be a nice one. junsu thinks sometimes about how his lie ruined it for him and kwang, how that first i love you became heartbreak. they're fine now, but he'll never get the first time they said that to each other back.
it's another reason he doesn't want to lie anymore. it ends up tainting things that should be wonderful in every way.
junsu wrinkles his nose, laughing and nudging myung right back. ]
Like I'm an expert for going once? I don't know anything about camping, baby, we'd just get lost out there.
[ He nods, because he does know. It's strange and scary, but it's also such a certainty, in his head and in his heart. He hums, pursing his lips, his tone amused. ]
Bite me? You're spending way too much time with wild animals.
[ Myung just sounds endlessly fond, though, curled close and soaking in the warmth of Junsu's body. ]
Hmmm, Minsu? Ten? Rook? Hell, Dash? Endless possibilities. [ Myung almost adds something, there, but he realizes before it's too late that it would be unnecessarily cruel for him to say that. So he bites his tongue, especially because he doesn't mean it, and it could genuinely upset Junsu. No need for that when they're comfortable, right now. He closes his eyes, snuggling in. ]
But you're my favorite to whine to about not getting dick, I'll admit.
[ Dal might as well start writing a book of questions, since he has about a thousand new ones every single day. Taking a few at a time to people seems the way to go, which is what he has in mind when he sets out from his and Bam's room in the direction of Junsu's.
Is he clutching a notebook? Maybe.
Does he drop it in surprise when he rounds the corner and sees Myung and Junsu? No, he does not. But he does look sheepish and that sheepish expression does sort of disappear behind the notebook as he raises it to his face. ] Oh- sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt...
[ He's already doing an about face in the direction he came from when he starts speaking. ]
[ special privilege, he was going to say, but then he hears a voice, and lifts his head to look over myung's shoulder to see dal disappear.
junsu's face falls, looking down at myung with immediate worry. he doesn't know if dal is going to be upset, he wouldn't blame him if he was, given their history, and how tangled up together they just were. but he doesn't want dal to worry about this, or be sad, and he definitely, absolutely does not want to ruin this for myung. ]
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And then he speaks, muffled into the pillow: ]
I fucking kid you not, I have had three consecutive wet dreams last night. All three woke me up. My wrist hurts, and it's only partly because of the piano.
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but it's mostly funny. ]
You knew what you were getting into! [ he slaps myung's ass on his way to sit next to him on the bed, laughing more to himself. ]
At least you haven't chafed anything yet.
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Finally, Myung turns his head, squinting at Junsu. There's no heat behind his look, or his words. ]
Yet. I've gone through so much lube. [ He sighs, relaxing a little. ] Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change a thing about him. And the stuff we do is - well it's hot, even if it's super Victorian. I'm just. Worked up.
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[ he nudges myung's leg, his laughter dying down to soft chuckles. he ruffles myung's hair, flopping down onto the mattress next to him, heaving a great sigh. ]
Think about how amazing it'll be to have sex again after you've held off a while. It'll really make it special.
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I know. I know, it's just. I want him so bad, that's all. We've done some things, you know, but it's always - it's like you're really really thirsty, and you get a sip of water, and then you have to watch the bottle. You can touch the bottle and caress the bottle and kiss the bottle but you can't -
[ Myung slaps a hand over his face, grunting in embarrassment. ] That's a terrible analogy, but you get what I mean.
[ Peeking at Junsu from between his fingertips, Myung hums. ]
Anyway, 'nough about me. How are you? You disappeared again for a few days.
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[ it's not a situation like he can't have dal because dal doesn't want him or is with someone else. it's not the same, but he knows what it's like to take a sip of what being with someone might be like, maybe multiple sips, but then never be able to drink from that same bottle again.
the thought isn't quite as upsetting as it once might have been. it's okay. he got a taste in the first place. and he's happy myung will get to have that whole bottle.
wow, this analogy. ]
Kwang took me away.
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[ And that was even before their confessions and some of the things they've done, and - yeah. Myung wants to tell Junsu, about the I love you's and the way it made his chest explode, but then Junsu talks again and Myung grins. ]
You got whisked away by both your boyfriends? Fuck me, you're lucky. Was it good?
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dal was clearly curious. and wanting to know things so he could navigate this and do it in a safe and comfortable way.
his face softens at the mention of both boyfriends, and thinking back on his time with kwang. there were hot and heavy times, but also... a lot of things were said, and the air was cleared further between them even when junsu didn't think anything was muddled, so. it was really nice. ]
It was, yeah. We talked about a lot of stuff.
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Myung looks at Junsu, smiling as he reaches out to poke at Junsu's thigh, playfully. ]
Talked, yeah, I'm sure that's what you did the most of. Talking. [ He chuckles to himself. ] I might be saying that because I'm currently in the state I am, but hey, if you did mostly talk, I'm impressed in your self-restraint. Excuse my saying that, but hey, Kwang's hot.
[ But, actually - ] How would you rate the treehouse?
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And I know he's hot! [ he laughs, giving myung a little shove. as if he needs to apologize for saying that. he would be more offended if myung said kwang wasn't attractive at all. he would seriously question myung's tastes.
he flops onto the bed, his arm over myung's back. ]
Like, for romance or sex? Well, it's a ten out of ten any way.
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Not yet. He just needs to keep telling himself that, and he'll be fine. He hums, able to look at Junsu much easier now that he's lying by his side. He reaches out, fiddling with the collar of Junsu's shirt. ]
I've been thinking I'd like to go, with Dal. Just need to convince Bam to give us a whole day. Maybe two. I feel guilty about it, you know? Like I'm asking him to stop living his life.
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[ junsu thinks it isn't fair that bam gets to more than dal, even though he doesn't think bam should just disappear either. he wanted them to get an equal chance to live, but dal was kind of reluctant to hear any advice or options when he tried.
he figures he might just not understand just how tricky it is for them, maybe.
but he wants myung happy, and he wants bam and dal to find a balance that works for them. ]
Maybe if you ask for three days you can strike a deal and Bam gets three days. Equivalent exchange.
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Three days? Wow, I was going to ask for like, a day, a day and a half.
[ He gives Junsu a look. ]
And I don't want Dal to be gone for three days afterwards. That'd suck. [ He hums. ] Gotta think about it. [ With another look, Myung raises an eyebrow. ]
Hey, so, have you told Joon I love you yet?
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You'll figure it out. You're both crafty.
[ anyone who has survived this far is, really.
he smiles, looking down at his fingers. it makes his heart race to think about. and he wants to cover his face. and giggle. and he feels like a little girl. ]
Yeah. Hehe. On the camping trip.
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God, you’re cute.
[ And he is, and Myung is so glad things are working out. He used to think Junsu was this mysterious guy, and it made him even hotter, but as he learned to know him better, it became obvious just how soft he is, how gentle, how much he yearns for this kind of love.
Myung sighs contently, pressing his nose against the curve of Junsu’s shoulder. ]
Dal said I live you, too. [ He doesn’t know why he doesn’t say that they both said it. ]
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[ junsu laughs, delighted. he's not really surprised. just happy for them. he assumes it's a good thing, or this would've been the order of the day before myung's whining about not getting laid. ]
That's amazing. [ he slings an arm around myung's middle, tucking himself close against him. it feels pretty natural to do this, after all. they've been much closer before, and junsu's a touchy, affectionate person. ]
It's kind of huge, given he's not done much, right?
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And he's so - measured. He thinks about things very carefully before he speaks, you know? So I knew he had thought about those words for a while before saying it, and I believed it instantly. It's not like it's been before.
[ Like when Dae said it for the first time and Myung just took it as Dae teasing him. Dae being Dae, cute and effusive and too much sometimes. But Dal wasn't the same. He looks up. ]
I said it back. [ Which is even more of a big deal, all things considered. For Myung, anyway. ]
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[ he just has to say it, with the way myung is hiding against his neck. it's been easy, to go from what they were to this, because they were friends, too. not just sleeping together. junsu is relieved about that.
and even more relieved to hear myung is letting himself have this. it's good for him. junsu hopes letting someone love him will help him stay away from fights and hating himself and thinking about what dae did. ]
Hey, congrats. That's a big deal too.
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Mm. Yeah, it felt like it. But it felt easy, too. I didn't hesitate, not like I have before.
[ He nudges Junsu. ]
Hey, now that you're survival expert and all, you should take me camping. I've never been, and the military doesn't count.
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[ it's nice for that moment to be a nice one. junsu thinks sometimes about how his lie ruined it for him and kwang, how that first i love you became heartbreak. they're fine now, but he'll never get the first time they said that to each other back.
it's another reason he doesn't want to lie anymore. it ends up tainting things that should be wonderful in every way.
junsu wrinkles his nose, laughing and nudging myung right back. ]
Like I'm an expert for going once? I don't know anything about camping, baby, we'd just get lost out there.
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Really? What good are you to me, then?
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[ he clicks his teeth together in mock bites, but still stays cuddled close. ]
You wouldn't know what to do without me. Who would you whine to about not getting dick?
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[ Myung just sounds endlessly fond, though, curled close and soaking in the warmth of Junsu's body. ]
Hmmm, Minsu? Ten? Rook? Hell, Dash? Endless possibilities. [ Myung almost adds something, there, but he realizes before it's too late that it would be unnecessarily cruel for him to say that. So he bites his tongue, especially because he doesn't mean it, and it could genuinely upset Junsu. No need for that when they're comfortable, right now. He closes his eyes, snuggling in. ]
But you're my favorite to whine to about not getting dick, I'll admit.
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Is he clutching a notebook? Maybe.
Does he drop it in surprise when he rounds the corner and sees Myung and Junsu? No, he does not. But he does look sheepish and that sheepish expression does sort of disappear behind the notebook as he raises it to his face. ] Oh- sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt...
[ He's already doing an about face in the direction he came from when he starts speaking. ]
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[ special privilege, he was going to say, but then he hears a voice, and lifts his head to look over myung's shoulder to see dal disappear.
junsu's face falls, looking down at myung with immediate worry. he doesn't know if dal is going to be upset, he wouldn't blame him if he was, given their history, and how tangled up together they just were. but he doesn't want dal to worry about this, or be sad, and he definitely, absolutely does not want to ruin this for myung. ]
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