[ well. that sure is a way to greet someone. junsu blinks, eyes wide, then kind of giggles. ]
Hello to you too, baby.
[ he sets his book aside. he doesn't know how to answer, actually, because the more he spent time with myung as he got over dae, the more he wanted him, but the more he knew that he would be hurt if their relationship kept on the way it had before.
junsu is all about self preservation. it was simple, too, to think he was doing it because myung had to be in a better place, because he didn't want to take advantage. it's more than that now.
the truth is he does want to have sex with myung still, but if he says as much, will myung just decide they're going to keep going as they were? junsu isn't ready to say he wants this but only if it means something more. it's unfair to ask that of myung after dae. it should be up to him. so what does he do? can he pretend to misunderstand? he can only think of assuming myung is propositioning him, albeit clumsily, which would only lead to him offering they do something.
[ The thing is that Myung, himself, has started catching feelings. Feelings bigger and more than just 'Junsu is a good friend I used to have sex with', turning more and more into 'Junsu is this guy I want to go to sleep with and wake up next to'. Those kind of feelings. The kind of had for Dae, before Dae turned out to be an douche, abandoning him.
When Junsu speaks, though, Myung deflates a little, bravado escaping him entirely. He's right, too. With a long breath, Myung nods. ]
Yeah. Yeah, I did, and I want to thank you for giving it to me. You've been the very best friend I could ever ask for.
[ Still, he bites his lip, and brushes a hand through his hair, taking a step closer without much thought. ]
But what if - what if I wanted to be more than that?
[ myung wants more with him? that doesn't seem right. maybe myung wants more sex, or to be labelled something more specific, like friends with benefits. maybe he wants them to talk about their relationship so he can properly move on and find someone to date while still being with junsu.
that makes sense. ]
We can be anything you like, you know. If you want something between us to change now that... now that things are better, we can talk about it.
[ With a frown, Myung looks up, his eyes searching Junsu's. ]
It's not just up to me. What I feel, it doesn't matter if you're not on board. But I also don't need you to feel obligated, or whatever.
[ There's an edge of disgust in his voice as he says the words. He'd hate for this to happen. For Junsu to fuck him just because he feels like that's what Myung wants. That'd hurt just as much as Dae leaving did. No, that's not what he wants, and Myung needs to be clear and honest. He sits up, fidgeting with anxiety. ]
I just. I'm not very good at talking about my feelings so I thought maybe I could express them to you through sex, and it's like, I don't know. It's what I know to do. But I don't want you to do anything for me. I want you to do things with me. Because I - I like you, okay? Like. I like you.
[ Myung flushes, looking down at his own lap, feeling stupidly like he's about to cry. ]
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Hello to you too, baby.
[ he sets his book aside. he doesn't know how to answer, actually, because the more he spent time with myung as he got over dae, the more he wanted him, but the more he knew that he would be hurt if their relationship kept on the way it had before.
junsu is all about self preservation. it was simple, too, to think he was doing it because myung had to be in a better place, because he didn't want to take advantage. it's more than that now.
the truth is he does want to have sex with myung still, but if he says as much, will myung just decide they're going to keep going as they were? junsu isn't ready to say he wants this but only if it means something more. it's unfair to ask that of myung after dae. it should be up to him. so what does he do? can he pretend to misunderstand? he can only think of assuming myung is propositioning him, albeit clumsily, which would only lead to him offering they do something.
so, stalling. stalling might work. ]
You needed time.
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When Junsu speaks, though, Myung deflates a little, bravado escaping him entirely. He's right, too. With a long breath, Myung nods. ]
Yeah. Yeah, I did, and I want to thank you for giving it to me. You've been the very best friend I could ever ask for.
[ Still, he bites his lip, and brushes a hand through his hair, taking a step closer without much thought. ]
But what if - what if I wanted to be more than that?
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that makes sense. ]
We can be anything you like, you know. If you want something between us to change now that... now that things are better, we can talk about it.
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It's not just up to me. What I feel, it doesn't matter if you're not on board. But I also don't need you to feel obligated, or whatever.
[ There's an edge of disgust in his voice as he says the words. He'd hate for this to happen. For Junsu to fuck him just because he feels like that's what Myung wants. That'd hurt just as much as Dae leaving did. No, that's not what he wants, and Myung needs to be clear and honest. He sits up, fidgeting with anxiety. ]
I just. I'm not very good at talking about my feelings so I thought maybe I could express them to you through sex, and it's like, I don't know. It's what I know to do. But I don't want you to do anything for me. I want you to do things with me. Because I - I like you, okay? Like. I like you.
[ Myung flushes, looking down at his own lap, feeling stupidly like he's about to cry. ]