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[braced]

just pretend its not yet decided. think on your feet!

[foxtwo]

the kind of thing I was born to do

oh also don't tell joone about any of this, i've already had to stop him from getting a ticket to come with us once. he just doesn't think i'm able to deal with this by myself

[braced]

he wants to come with and babysit you?

[foxtwo]

yes. he mentioned it once, and i talked him out of the idea, but i think he's always half a second away from getting a plane ticket for himself

i can do this, junsu.

[braced]

i know you can.

dont worry. i dont want him to leave so ill make sure he doesnt have a reason

[foxtwo]

i know that it's just because he feels responsible for me, but he keeps on thinking he's that much more mature and grown up than I am, and that I'm barely able to feed myself. I love him more than life itself and he is the best person I know, but by Inari he is frustrating.

Also, you don't have to worry. He'll never leave you.

[braced]

i love him for that. i know its frustrating though

you sound sure

[foxtwo]

you love him for thinking i'm immature?

it's because i am.

[braced]

no! i love him for being so... like. he has to make sure everything is going according to his standards and he worries about people he loves so then his standards get really unreasonable

yeah?

[foxtwo]

it's easy to love it when the 'unreasonable' isn't applied to you ;)

yeah.

[braced]

please you love him! you can tell him off. i do my best to keep him reasoned too

okay. thank you

[foxtwo]

i do, but funnily enough, he is very good at tuning me out.

if you didn't realize already, when we love, junsu, we love very hard, and with no conditions. i guess it's a family trait, or maybe it's a kitsune thing, i don't know. but he chose you. he's not one to turn back on that. choosing you was a commitment in itself.

[braced]

because youre his brother

i dont feel like i deserve that from him. hes so good.

[foxtwo]

he chose you, so you deserve it. thinking you don't is disrespecting his choice. you could hurt his feelings.

[braced]

i worry that i already do sometimes

[foxtwo]

why?

[braced]

ah, he said something once

about how he thinks i love him less because i also love kwang

[foxtwo]

oh

do you?

[braced]

no of course not!

i love him so much. With everything I have

[foxtwo]

well then, that's what matter. do you love kwang less?

[braced]

of course i dont! its not about loving one less than the other. its not about quantity. i love them both the same amount, in their own ways.

but if hojoon doesnt feel that way, then maybe im hurting him by not showing it to him

[foxtwo]

if your love is true, there is no reason for joon to feel less loved. it's possible he's playing this up to get more of your attention

we are foxes, after all.

[braced]

maybe... it didnt feel like that

but i do want him to feel it. so i dont mind if that means he needs more of my attention. ill give him that

[foxtwo]

what happens if kwang needs more of your attention?

i am not saying it can't work, by the way. i know you love my brother and that's all i ask. i'm just curious.

[braced]

i have time to give. i keep some time to myself and then time for both of them. the time for myself can go to either one of them needs it that day, or that week, or that month

if theres need for more, id be honest about it, i guess. tell them something happened and he needs me. find a compromise