What if having something means having something to miss when it's gone?
You did. I shouldn't minimize that. I'm going to be honest with everyone and let them decide what they think is best. That seems like the only way we can live here, I think.
It doesn't work like that for us. Before we came here, I barely ever did anything. It was either too dangerous or what was the point? I knew things from osmosis, but I didn't have any friends or work to do or any kind of obligation.
i mean, yeah. if they know what the risks are and dont think they're risks, then you can talk about it if something happens. its not like you kill people if you accidentally touch them.
I could. I mean, I don't know that for sure, but if I touched someone long enough. Might be. Maybe I don't deserve to touch people if I'm that scared of what I can do.
We can rest, but not as effectively. If we were both awake for 12 hours each, it would eventually wear us out. We tried it for awhile when we first went on the road.
Poor results.
Haven't you had a lifetime of getting used to that though? I've probably been around less than a year in total.
Sorry, no, I hear you. I'm not trying to argue with you, I swear.
It's not even that it's been frustrating me for a long time. I'm barely aware of how it's maybe held me back. Maybe that's the frustrating part? It's weird to think I don't know what I've been missing.
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You did. I shouldn't minimize that. I'm going to be honest with everyone and let them decide what they think is best. That seems like the only way we can live here, I think.
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yeah. thats good. its a two person thing you know. you tell someone and you can trust each other and work through it together if something happens
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Trust is a big word.
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you dont want to get people to trust you?
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Maybe I don't trust myself.
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then that means you dont trust anyone else either.
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You can't have one without the other?
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can you? if someone says they trust you, doesnt it mean nothing to you because you dont trust yourself?
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Maybe it's enough to believe in a person who believes in you.
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it didnt sound like thats what you were saying.
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No, I guess it didn't, did it? I do kind of want to believe that's true though.
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then there's no reason you cant be around people here, if you trust them to trust you
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Might not be so bad, right?
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right. if youre honest about what might happen and the person says its okay, then its okay
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It's that simple, huh?
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i mean, yeah. if they know what the risks are and dont think they're risks, then you can talk about it if something happens. its not like you kill people if you accidentally touch them.
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I could. I mean, I don't know that for sure, but if I touched someone long enough. Might be. Maybe I don't deserve to touch people if I'm that scared of what I can do.
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then just don't try to go that far? just go bit by bit.
and thats stupid. we can all hurt each other, even if not physically. and we still touch and get close. and get hurt and survive.
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Poor results.
Haven't you had a lifetime of getting used to that though? I've probably been around less than a year in total.
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ok, well. if you know what you want to do ill stop arguing with you that it could be different.
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It's not even that it's been frustrating me for a long time. I'm barely aware of how it's maybe held me back. Maybe that's the frustrating part? It's weird to think I don't know what I've been missing.
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Inconsequential stuff like, what clothes do I like? I never thought about it before.
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its part of what makes you you
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