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we're going to have plenty to keep each other busy on this camping trip

[foxone]

are you looking forward to getting back to nature?

[braced]

does that mean no clothes

[foxone]

only if i can get the campfire really going.

[braced]

i have a feeling you wont have too much trouble

[foxone]

i'm super motivated.

then again if i failed you'd be cuddling up to me like a space heater.

[braced]

could do that naked by the fire too baby

[foxone]

why do you make it so easy for me?

[braced]

make what easy? im not even really doing anything!

[foxone]

that's just it, you're not. you're just being you. and i don't deserve to be this lucky. not after everything.

[braced]

of course you do

you didnt do anything joon

[foxone]

even if that's true. even if you're right.

you're still pretty fucking perfect.

[braced]

im really not. im scared all the time. and im needy. and greedy. and im kind of a hypocrite. and i lie to people

[foxone]

you don't have to be scared. and you don't have to lie anymore if you don't want to.

[braced]

i think... i think i want to. stop lying. i just have to figure out how.

[foxone]

you want me to go door to door telling everyone for you?

[he's joking.

he'd do it though.]

[braced]

youre so sweet

thats not really the part im worried about

[foxone]

what part are you worried about? if you wanna talk about it.

[braced]

i guess... it's me? i lie about it because im scared. it makes me feel safe to pretend. itd be like im naked all the time if i stopped.

[foxone]

it would probably feel that way for a little while. sometimes things just have to hurt before they get better.

i don't look forward to you going through that. just...whatever you decide to do, whenever you decide, i'll back you.

[braced]

i know. i think itd be... i would just be anxious and scared a lot so. i have to think about how to do it for myself so i dont freak out

thank you. youre helping already

[foxone]

take your time. nothing that you don't want to happen has to happen.

that makes me happy.

[braced]

im really lucky to know someone like you.

[foxone]

[he hopes that that's true. there's a moment of panic when he falls back on those other thoughts, the ones about being cursed, about bringing pain and misfortune on junsu instead.

he takes a breath.]

funny, i was just thinking the same thing.

[braced]

im not sure yet how im good for you though