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[ oh! huh.
well. he's not shocked. kwang had really wanted hojoon to like him, but junsu had kind of thought it was for his benefit, so things would be harmonious. not that kwang had an interest in hojoon. ]
He usually means what he says, you know. [ as in, that wasn't to try and placate joon, and it isn't just to please junsu. ]
well. he's not shocked. kwang had really wanted hojoon to like him, but junsu had kind of thought it was for his benefit, so things would be harmonious. not that kwang had an interest in hojoon. ]
He usually means what he says, you know. [ as in, that wasn't to try and placate joon, and it isn't just to please junsu. ]
'this person'
we don't have to pretend we don't both know who i'm talking about
i think i want him to know right away. i think that's how he'd prefer it, we're pretty honest and blunt with each other. should i be naked or something?
i could set up an illusion, but i don't know what's more romantic?
we don't have to pretend we don't both know who i'm talking about
i think i want him to know right away. i think that's how he'd prefer it, we're pretty honest and blunt with each other. should i be naked or something?
i could set up an illusion, but i don't know what's more romantic?
Yeah, he strikes me as the type.
[joon can respect that. he's had a growing respect for the other boyfriend for some time now. he assumed that it was the same with kwang.
he didn't know he was giving him the dokis. damn his devilish charms and good looks. joon rolls onto his back, looking up at him.]
What should I do?
[joon can respect that. he's had a growing respect for the other boyfriend for some time now. he assumed that it was the same with kwang.
he didn't know he was giving him the dokis. damn his devilish charms and good looks. joon rolls onto his back, looking up at him.]
What should I do?
hey if it helps you be less embarrassed... i was going to pretend i didnt know!
hmm. naked would work. i dont know, when i think of something sexy that would immediately make me think "oh, its happening" i think of a lot of low light, and either candles or string lights, and it's kind of warm, and there's pillows. and a stock of useful things in plain sight
but different people find different things hot.
hmm. naked would work. i dont know, when i think of something sexy that would immediately make me think "oh, its happening" i think of a lot of low light, and either candles or string lights, and it's kind of warm, and there's pillows. and a stock of useful things in plain sight
but different people find different things hot.
How do you feel, baby?
[ that's the most important thing here. this is about kwang and hojoon, not junsu. he doesn't even feel remotely jealous, though maybe it's because it's taking time sinking in.
maybe he's just happy there might be someone else for hojoon out there, and that person is his other favorite person. what a charmed life that would be, his two boyfriends also loving one another. ]
Do you like him like that? [ he brushes joon's hair off his forehead, then traces his eyebrow with a finger tip. ]
[ that's the most important thing here. this is about kwang and hojoon, not junsu. he doesn't even feel remotely jealous, though maybe it's because it's taking time sinking in.
maybe he's just happy there might be someone else for hojoon out there, and that person is his other favorite person. what a charmed life that would be, his two boyfriends also loving one another. ]
Do you like him like that? [ he brushes joon's hair off his forehead, then traces his eyebrow with a finger tip. ]
I've never thought about him like that, because I'm with you.
[but joon has a talent that most people don't, an ability to shut off his heart. he did it with haneul, he did it with junsu. a brief thing in both cases.
maybe this is just as temporary.]
I can see why you like him like that. He's tall and graceful. Kind. He knows the right things to say.
[there's something vulnerable about him too, in a good way. something hojoon doesn't feel in himself.]
I think...it's possible. I'm just afraid.
[words that only junsu is privy to.]
[but joon has a talent that most people don't, an ability to shut off his heart. he did it with haneul, he did it with junsu. a brief thing in both cases.
maybe this is just as temporary.]
I can see why you like him like that. He's tall and graceful. Kind. He knows the right things to say.
[there's something vulnerable about him too, in a good way. something hojoon doesn't feel in himself.]
I think...it's possible. I'm just afraid.
[words that only junsu is privy to.]
[ the words make junsu flush slightly, excited to do this, eager to see what kwang has in store. it can be hard to let go and let himself be worshipped, hard to be vulnerable some days, but with kwang it's never difficult. it's so easy to sink into it. ]
Okay. I'm yours.
Okay. I'm yours.
[ it makes sense, he thinks. joon had no reason to look at someone with that context in mind if he wasn't looking for someone, something else. junsu gets it now, when looking at others the way he used to feels wrong, off, like cheating. he's reached the point where the people in his life are enough that no one else even registers as a possibility.
he can also understand this being scary. ]
Do you know what you're afraid of?
he can also understand this being scary. ]
Do you know what you're afraid of?
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