[ It feels overwhelming, to let it all out like this, instead of piece by piece. But it's reassuring, too. Kwang didn't realize he'd ben harboring these fears and doubts for a little while, and it feels good to be able to let them out, to hear Junsu's reassurances. ]

I definitely understand. [ Kwang smiles, a little sheepish, too. ] I wouldn't have had these worries, if I didn't understand. I'm adjusting too, in a way. And I'll have to adjust a little more, if you and Ten grow even closer. Which, I'd definitely like, but it'll change things again.

[ He's not fooling himself about that. But he's quite excited by the prospect, rather than worried. As long as they don't take off together and leave him in the dust, obviously, which - eh. The thought makes him smile. ]

I wasn't always, you know? Kind and gentle. I've done a lot of shitty things, out of anger, and fear, and pain. But that's exactly why I want to be better now.

[ He leans into the touch, pushing his cheek against one of Junsu's palms, and he nods. ]

I will. The other day, actually, it - for some reason, they felt worse than usual. You were both busy, but I crossed paths with Dal, who touched me, and. [ Kwang closes his eyes, exhaling softly. ] He took the pain away, for a while. It helped. And then I took them out, and Hojoon saw me.