[junsu looks so happy. it breaks joon's heart, because he already knows. he knows that this shouldn't have happened. he knows that nights exactly like this dulled and distracted him before. he closes his eyes, fingers sliding along the underside of the human's arms. he's drawn to him, falls towards junsu slowly until he finds his mouth first. the kiss is slow too, but not chaste.
joon wishes. he would give anything to keep this pain one-sided. he would hurt forever in junsu's place. but he's done it now. his selfishness is going to hurt someone that his heart longs for, just like it did with haneul.]
I want to.
[he can put it off for this one night. hojoon's hands reach for the front of junsu's pants.]
I want to.
[joon repeats the words while nodding. he wants to, and that's the problem. but he can't just leave him like this, taking without giving back. without letting him use his own brand of magic a little bit more.]
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joon wishes. he would give anything to keep this pain one-sided. he would hurt forever in junsu's place. but he's done it now. his selfishness is going to hurt someone that his heart longs for, just like it did with haneul.]
I want to.
[he can put it off for this one night. hojoon's hands reach for the front of junsu's pants.]
I want to.
[joon repeats the words while nodding. he wants to, and that's the problem. but he can't just leave him like this, taking without giving back. without letting him use his own brand of magic a little bit more.]
Name what you want from me. It's already yours.