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[minsu still feels impatient, but it is easier when he sees junsu relax and the worry leaving his face.]
Thank you. For worrying about me.
[and not just him, but the baby and sage too.]
You being the voice of reason makes me feel like you'v matured without me...
Thank you. For worrying about me.
[and not just him, but the baby and sage too.]
You being the voice of reason makes me feel like you'v matured without me...
[ There is very little in life that Kwang likes more than watching someone he loves fall apart at the seams like this, rendered speechless or loud by pleasure. There's nothing more beautiful than Junsu right now, body taut and tense, lips red and hair all over, muscles twitching.
Kwang swallows around him, making pleased noises as he does, and then starts to pull off, keeping his fingers wrapped around the base of Junsu's cock as he does, not wanting to break off all contact but not wanting his boyfriend to get uncomfortable, either.
He looks up, knowing he must look slightly debauched himself, hair wild, cheeks flushed with his own arousal, lips red and swollen. He smiles, flattening his palm against Junsu's stomach before he replaces it with his mouth, kissing the soft skin. ]
You taste so good, babe. You still with me?
Kwang swallows around him, making pleased noises as he does, and then starts to pull off, keeping his fingers wrapped around the base of Junsu's cock as he does, not wanting to break off all contact but not wanting his boyfriend to get uncomfortable, either.
He looks up, knowing he must look slightly debauched himself, hair wild, cheeks flushed with his own arousal, lips red and swollen. He smiles, flattening his palm against Junsu's stomach before he replaces it with his mouth, kissing the soft skin. ]
You taste so good, babe. You still with me?
[ junsu kisses minsu's forehead, then brushes his hair with his fingers. ]
Of course. I always do. That's why I'm not more mature... I've just always been scared something will happen to me, and now I'm scared something will happen to you and the people you love.
[ he's scared something will happen to hojoon and kwang, too, but differently, because they have powers and strengths that minsu and junsu don't have. this isn't maturity, it's the same fear, and selfishness, too. if he were to do this with minsu and something went wrong, who would sage blame if junsu wasn't hurt but minsu was? and junsu would blame himself, too, infinitely so. ]
You're going to mature a lot, raising a baby. Do you think it's going to be a girl or a boy?
Of course. I always do. That's why I'm not more mature... I've just always been scared something will happen to me, and now I'm scared something will happen to you and the people you love.
[ he's scared something will happen to hojoon and kwang, too, but differently, because they have powers and strengths that minsu and junsu don't have. this isn't maturity, it's the same fear, and selfishness, too. if he were to do this with minsu and something went wrong, who would sage blame if junsu wasn't hurt but minsu was? and junsu would blame himself, too, infinitely so. ]
You're going to mature a lot, raising a baby. Do you think it's going to be a girl or a boy?
I scare the people who scare you, so.
[the 'stay close to me' goes unspoken. minsu feels suddenly shy and can't finish the thought.]
And I've already got it figured it out.
[which might seem surprising, or even unlikely. but there is still a little of that fox cleverness inside of him.]
[the 'stay close to me' goes unspoken. minsu feels suddenly shy and can't finish the thought.]
And I've already got it figured it out.
[which might seem surprising, or even unlikely. but there is still a little of that fox cleverness inside of him.]
It still sounds like an adult kind of worry to me.
[his childhood wasn't completely carefree. minsu was always worried about pleasing his father, or more likely displeasing him. but he was innocent of some thoughts until he reached a certain age. losing people that he cared about seemed so far away, not like something that could just happen at any time.
he would worry about it a lot more now if it weren't for all the spells and charms and people around them, helping keeping them all safe.]
I think it'll just give me someone else to play with! And as long as it's healthy, I don't care. I really don't! [he emphasizes this before continuing.] But a little girl would be sweet.
[his childhood wasn't completely carefree. minsu was always worried about pleasing his father, or more likely displeasing him. but he was innocent of some thoughts until he reached a certain age. losing people that he cared about seemed so far away, not like something that could just happen at any time.
he would worry about it a lot more now if it weren't for all the spells and charms and people around them, helping keeping them all safe.]
I think it'll just give me someone else to play with! And as long as it's healthy, I don't care. I really don't! [he emphasizes this before continuing.] But a little girl would be sweet.
so, you remember how we talked about me giving you something special to show my commitment to you, over new years?
i've got it, now. if you still want it? i don't want things to be awkward for you.
i've got it, now. if you still want it? i don't want things to be awkward for you.
i can come to you. should i? otherwise i'm outside, at the outskirt of the swamp just behind the house
yes, and i was finishing the spell to your present, too. better if i was in contact with nature for it.
i'll stay here, then
i'll stay here, then
i'd be worried she'd take him away from me, and i'd never see him again. like, she has that power, you know? he's an adult, of course, but i don't know if he'd go against his mother.
yes, yes, that. i do enjoy baseball the best. then cuddling. cuddling after baseball.
yes, yes, that. i do enjoy baseball the best. then cuddling. cuddling after baseball.
Hey, baby.
[ Kwang smiles, holding his free hand out to Junsu. He turns to his boyfriend fully, taking a shaky breath. ]
Sorry, I'm a little nervous. This - is a big thing, for me. You know I don't know much about where I come from, and all, but this is straight from old tribe spellbooks, so it's like. Traditional, I guess?
[ Kwang smiles, holding his free hand out to Junsu. He turns to his boyfriend fully, taking a shaky breath. ]
Sorry, I'm a little nervous. This - is a big thing, for me. You know I don't know much about where I come from, and all, but this is straight from old tribe spellbooks, so it's like. Traditional, I guess?
Oh, wow. Really?
[ junsu's a bit... taken aback to hear that. in a good way. he takes kwang's hand and squeezes it. this is important, and of course it is, but he didn't think kwang would've used some ancient, traditional magic for him, not for a promise that wasn't quite official, more like a wish, a desire they share to be united long term one day.
it's a lot. he takes in a slow breath. ]
Now you're making me nervous.
[ junsu's a bit... taken aback to hear that. in a good way. he takes kwang's hand and squeezes it. this is important, and of course it is, but he didn't think kwang would've used some ancient, traditional magic for him, not for a promise that wasn't quite official, more like a wish, a desire they share to be united long term one day.
it's a lot. he takes in a slow breath. ]
Now you're making me nervous.
Oh, don't worry, it's not going to do anything - it's not going to bind us properly or anything like that. It's just, the spell I used, it's not something I'm used to. But hopefully it worked.
[ He holds out the ring to Junsu, not wasting any more time trying to explain himself. It'll make more sense if he lets Junsu feel it.
The ring is wooden, but it glows a faint green. ]
The thing I've bound to it is a bit of my magic. So while you're wearing it, you'll have a tiny bit of magic, too. I'm not entirely sure how it'll manifest, though, maybe you'll be able to make charms, or throw a spell out. I've never done this before, so... We might have to try it out.
[ He holds out the ring to Junsu, not wasting any more time trying to explain himself. It'll make more sense if he lets Junsu feel it.
The ring is wooden, but it glows a faint green. ]
The thing I've bound to it is a bit of my magic. So while you're wearing it, you'll have a tiny bit of magic, too. I'm not entirely sure how it'll manifest, though, maybe you'll be able to make charms, or throw a spell out. I've never done this before, so... We might have to try it out.
[ junsu tilted his head curiously. he didn't think it mattered that much, that someone might feel insecure about things like that. but it made sense. it's like humans being insecure about their noses or hands or bodies. of course this would happen to magical beings with extra appendages.
he likes that smile, though. ]
Ah, yeah... [ learning magic was real had been... it was difficult to say, really, since he'd gotten so carried away in his fantasy that he was magical, that if magic was real, then this feeling inside him that he was magical was true. that with time his powers would manifest. ] I can confidently say it changed my life.
he likes that smile, though. ]
Ah, yeah... [ learning magic was real had been... it was difficult to say, really, since he'd gotten so carried away in his fantasy that he was magical, that if magic was real, then this feeling inside him that he was magical was true. that with time his powers would manifest. ] I can confidently say it changed my life.
[ it takes him a moment to be able to gather this thoughts, his words, and answer. he's dazed and sated and his body is still gasping for air. ]
Hmm. Yeah. [ he manages to say that much, but his voice sounds a little funny. ]
Sorta.
[ he chuckles softly, breathless, hand pushing sweaty hair from his forehead. looking down takes his breath away all over again, kwang looking gorgeous like this, mouth looking used, cheeks red, hair a mess. he takes it all in, reaching to run fingertips over his red lips. ]
God, you look amazing like this. [ he motions with his hand. ] C'mere.
Hmm. Yeah. [ he manages to say that much, but his voice sounds a little funny. ]
Sorta.
[ he chuckles softly, breathless, hand pushing sweaty hair from his forehead. looking down takes his breath away all over again, kwang looking gorgeous like this, mouth looking used, cheeks red, hair a mess. he takes it all in, reaching to run fingertips over his red lips. ]
God, you look amazing like this. [ he motions with his hand. ] C'mere.
i dont know... i feel like i think i can handle everything until i cant anymore. theres been a lot of changes lately, and it piles up. myung and dal, minsu and sage and the baby, kwang and hojoon maybe trying things, hojoon not... not seeing things the right way
So you'll protect me? [ he finishes for him, closing his eyes. he wants that safety and protection, but getting it for no reason, without asking for it, without doing anything to deserve it, feels weird. like it's a lie. like minsu might say that but then decide junsu isn't worth it.
junsu has to make him care, make him think he has to keep him safe. his hand finds minsu's chest, fingers tapping there idly. ]
What's the plan, then?
junsu has to make him care, make him think he has to keep him safe. his hand finds minsu's chest, fingers tapping there idly. ]
What's the plan, then?
you're right, there have been a lot of changes. it's hard to know how to look at one thing at a time when everything's rushing at us all the sudden. or feels that way?
if one thing falls over, it's easy enough to reach for it and pick it up, but eventually you run out of hands.
if one thing falls over, it's easy enough to reach for it and pick it up, but eventually you run out of hands.
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