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you back in the house yet? i need to talk t you about something if you are. just hmu when you're around and available
[ Myung doesn't reply to the text, just makes his way upstairs to Junsu's room, and walks in without knocking, closing the door behind him. He grins when he sees Junsu, dimples showing. He's feeling a million times better now, and it shows - some might even say that Myung is glowing, a little bit.
Might be something in the water. ]
Hey. Missed you. D'you have fun?
Might be something in the water. ]
Hey. Missed you. D'you have fun?
[ seeing myung smile like that eases any worry junsu might have had about the upcoming conversation. he grins back, pleased to see him glow. junsu's not far from it either, beaming at the mention of having fun on his trip. ]
Tons of fun. [ he takes myung's hand, tugging on it so he'll sit on the bed with him. ]
But I missed you too, babe.
Tons of fun. [ he takes myung's hand, tugging on it so he'll sit on the bed with him. ]
But I missed you too, babe.
[ Myung follows easily, actually falling back on the bed and lying down, looking at Junsu from that angle. ]
I'm glad. What did you do?
[ He reaches out for Junsu's hand again, playing with his fingers a bit. ]
What I want to talk about, it is kinda important. I think. I mean, for me, it's an actual, pretty fucking terrifying game-changer. And I'd like your thoughts.
I'm glad. What did you do?
[ He reaches out for Junsu's hand again, playing with his fingers a bit. ]
What I want to talk about, it is kinda important. I think. I mean, for me, it's an actual, pretty fucking terrifying game-changer. And I'd like your thoughts.
Honestly, not much. But we talked and spent time together and it was... good. So good.
[ he feels steadier on his feet than he has in a long time. he knows myung is part of the reason for that, too.
junsu plays with myung's hand as myung does with his, tilting his head. myung looks happier than ever too, so it can't be something bad, something he's upset about. it makes him curious. ]
Oh yeah? What is it?
[ he feels steadier on his feet than he has in a long time. he knows myung is part of the reason for that, too.
junsu plays with myung's hand as myung does with his, tilting his head. myung looks happier than ever too, so it can't be something bad, something he's upset about. it makes him curious. ]
Oh yeah? What is it?
[ Myung grins. ] Good, that's good. I like the twins. I'm glad he's good for you.
[ His stomach twists a little with worry - what if Junsu reacts badly?
No. No, it'll be fine. Junsu is his friend. He looks down at their fingers, taking a breath. ]
I meant someone new, recently. Few weeks ago. Things are getting... sort of serious?
[ His stomach twists a little with worry - what if Junsu reacts badly?
No. No, it'll be fine. Junsu is his friend. He looks down at their fingers, taking a breath. ]
I meant someone new, recently. Few weeks ago. Things are getting... sort of serious?
[ junsu's pleased expression only turns happier. that's good news. he's really glad. myung had been having such a hard time lately. he deserves someone nice, something serious. ]
Really? I'm happy for you, Myung baby.
[ he lifts his hand to ruffle his hair. ]
You deserve someone nice and something steady.
[ though, myung said game changer, but he's too happy for him to be thinking about what he meant. ]
Really? I'm happy for you, Myung baby.
[ he lifts his hand to ruffle his hair. ]
You deserve someone nice and something steady.
[ though, myung said game changer, but he's too happy for him to be thinking about what he meant. ]
[ Myung sits up, pushing up and looking straight at Junsu now, serious and happy, but also a little, tiny bit somber. He's really kinda worried about this, because he knows some of the things Junsu doesn't talk about. His feelings for Minsu - or at least, he knows to an extent, since they never discussed them.
Myung doesn't want to hurt him. ]
I want to. Thing is, right, he's a virgin, he's never been in a relationship before, he's never done anything, with anyone. So I don't want to, I don't know, only give him a part of me when he's giving me everything? So I'm thinking of. Asking him to be exclusive, with me. In a monogamous relationship. Which would mean...
[ You know. ]
Myung doesn't want to hurt him. ]
I want to. Thing is, right, he's a virgin, he's never been in a relationship before, he's never done anything, with anyone. So I don't want to, I don't know, only give him a part of me when he's giving me everything? So I'm thinking of. Asking him to be exclusive, with me. In a monogamous relationship. Which would mean...
[ You know. ]
[ junsu breathes in. right, game changer.
this sucks, really, but myung is doing it for someone he cares about and because it's what he wants, so junsu smiles. he takes myung's hand again, holding it tight. ]
Okay. I get it.
[ he does, even if it hurts. he'll miss being with myung that way, but he still gets to see him, so thats something. it's not like myung is leaving entirely. just putting an end to this aspect of their relationship. it's fine. he's friends with minsu still. he sees him a lot. and this is not... it isn't someone saying being with him wasn't serious. that he isn't special enough to keep like that, to be more. it's just things that happen. sometimes. maybe twice, but whatever, that doesn't mean anything. it can't.
he does wonder if that's what he thinks it is. if myung thinks junsu gives only parts of himself to the people he loves. that he can't love them completely. but maybe to myung that's what it meant.
this is making myung happy. that's what matters. it's probably going to be good for him. junsu's glad he has someone that special in his life. that's what he wants to put forward. ]
I think that sounds nice. He'll be happy you want that with him.
this sucks, really, but myung is doing it for someone he cares about and because it's what he wants, so junsu smiles. he takes myung's hand again, holding it tight. ]
Okay. I get it.
[ he does, even if it hurts. he'll miss being with myung that way, but he still gets to see him, so thats something. it's not like myung is leaving entirely. just putting an end to this aspect of their relationship. it's fine. he's friends with minsu still. he sees him a lot. and this is not... it isn't someone saying being with him wasn't serious. that he isn't special enough to keep like that, to be more. it's just things that happen. sometimes. maybe twice, but whatever, that doesn't mean anything. it can't.
he does wonder if that's what he thinks it is. if myung thinks junsu gives only parts of himself to the people he loves. that he can't love them completely. but maybe to myung that's what it meant.
this is making myung happy. that's what matters. it's probably going to be good for him. junsu's glad he has someone that special in his life. that's what he wants to put forward. ]
I think that sounds nice. He'll be happy you want that with him.
[ The only reason why Myung is bothering speaking to Junsu like this, serious and intent, is because he takes what they have seriously, too. Because their relationship matters to him. Because he loves Junsu, in a way. Not the way he loved Dae, not the way he loved Sage, not the way he loves Minsu, not the way he's falling for Dal. In its very own, personal, intimate, Junsu-and-Myung way.
Myung doesn't think that, actually. He has a very skewed view of himself and what he has to offer, and it never reflects on the people he does love. He's only ever seen Junsu give his everything to the people he cares for, himself included. ]
I'm sorry. [ Myung bites the inside of his lip, worrying it a little as he finds his words. ] I'm not going anywhere, alright? You and I, it's more than just sex, for me. And, fuck knows I've never done this before, so I'm definitely going to need... I don't know, help, advice, guidance, whatever. Something.
[ Then Junsu's words catch up to Myung. ]
Wait, you know who I'm talking about?
Myung doesn't think that, actually. He has a very skewed view of himself and what he has to offer, and it never reflects on the people he does love. He's only ever seen Junsu give his everything to the people he cares for, himself included. ]
I'm sorry. [ Myung bites the inside of his lip, worrying it a little as he finds his words. ] I'm not going anywhere, alright? You and I, it's more than just sex, for me. And, fuck knows I've never done this before, so I'm definitely going to need... I don't know, help, advice, guidance, whatever. Something.
[ Then Junsu's words catch up to Myung. ]
Wait, you know who I'm talking about?
Don't be sorry. This is a good thing.
[ he squeezes myung's hand again. he appreciates the kind words, and it's true junsu considers myung to be a best friend. junsu's a little upset, a little sad, but he knows he'll be okay. he'll do his best not to let this hurt him because the intent isn't to do that. it hurts not to be chosen for the second time, but he now knows the value in friendship in a way he didn't before. he'll be happy to stay myung's friend without the sex. ]
I'm not sure I'll be the best at advice about that, but I'll do my best.
[ he laughs, thinking back to dal sitting in front of him and minsu. ]
Uh, yeah. Dal let it slip when me and Minsu talk to him about... things. Sex Ed.
[ he squeezes myung's hand again. he appreciates the kind words, and it's true junsu considers myung to be a best friend. junsu's a little upset, a little sad, but he knows he'll be okay. he'll do his best not to let this hurt him because the intent isn't to do that. it hurts not to be chosen for the second time, but he now knows the value in friendship in a way he didn't before. he'll be happy to stay myung's friend without the sex. ]
I'm not sure I'll be the best at advice about that, but I'll do my best.
[ he laughs, thinking back to dal sitting in front of him and minsu. ]
Uh, yeah. Dal let it slip when me and Minsu talk to him about... things. Sex Ed.
[ Myung licks his lips, his smile breaking through again. ]
Honestly, I'm terrified. And you - you've got boyfriends, and they haven't run away from you, so you probably are doing things right. The only guy I've ever asked to be my boyfriend couldn't even dump me in person.
[ The smile fades. It still stings. Even if Dal has made moving on easy and fast and fun, it still stings. Myung's still angry about it. He looks away for a moment, before getting himself back together, shrugging aggressively.
That is, until he hears what Junsu says next, and his mouth opens, slightly shocked. ]
Excu- what? [ He blinks, genuinely surprised. And then, sort of mortified, color rushing to his cheeks.
But that means -
Later. ]
Sex Ed.
Honestly, I'm terrified. And you - you've got boyfriends, and they haven't run away from you, so you probably are doing things right. The only guy I've ever asked to be my boyfriend couldn't even dump me in person.
[ The smile fades. It still stings. Even if Dal has made moving on easy and fast and fun, it still stings. Myung's still angry about it. He looks away for a moment, before getting himself back together, shrugging aggressively.
That is, until he hears what Junsu says next, and his mouth opens, slightly shocked. ]
Excu- what? [ He blinks, genuinely surprised. And then, sort of mortified, color rushing to his cheeks.
But that means -
Later. ]
Sex Ed.
[ junsu makes a face. he's not very happy with dae for that. not at all. ]
You deserve better. Dal is better.
[ not that junsu knows him all that well, and their conversation didn't go as smoothly as his conversations usually go, but. he doesn't dislike him. he's just trying to find his place, and if myung is willing to do this for him, then they'll be a good fit for each other.
junsu laughs again at myung's shock, waving a hand. ]
He had questions! Minsu wanted help making sure Dal would have the right answers!
You deserve better. Dal is better.
[ not that junsu knows him all that well, and their conversation didn't go as smoothly as his conversations usually go, but. he doesn't dislike him. he's just trying to find his place, and if myung is willing to do this for him, then they'll be a good fit for each other.
junsu laughs again at myung's shock, waving a hand. ]
He had questions! Minsu wanted help making sure Dal would have the right answers!
[ Myung shrugs again, but he looks down, swaying forward a little until his forehead hits Junsu's shoulder. ]
I just don't want it to happen again.
[ Myung wouldn't be surprised to hear the conversation didn't go as smoothly as expected. Dal is truly... very innocent, when it comes to this. Myung chuckles, still feeling slightly mortified. ]
Part of me is glad he asked, part of me wishes he'd asked me. But I probably would have imploded.
I just don't want it to happen again.
[ Myung wouldn't be surprised to hear the conversation didn't go as smoothly as expected. Dal is truly... very innocent, when it comes to this. Myung chuckles, still feeling slightly mortified. ]
Part of me is glad he asked, part of me wishes he'd asked me. But I probably would have imploded.
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