[minsu starts to speak and then stops. he wants to be touched, he does. he's noticed that his hunger has started to change over these many months, in ways that he couldn't quite pinpoint. junsu's words are helping to clear it up a little.
he's already touched starved. he wants junsu to kiss him and touch him. but even when junsu seemed willing, minsu couldn't believe that someone would want a monster like him touching them.
and that last statement reminds him even more of what he is, and he doesn't want to imagine meeting junsu somewhere like that, his easy smile and willingness, because minsu knows what he would've done next, how he smells so good that he might've tried to take advantage of it. it makes him blink against the tears that sting his eyes that want to fully form. he tries to think about something else - so he thinks about his curiosity.]
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[minsu starts to speak and then stops. he wants to be touched, he does. he's noticed that his hunger has started to change over these many months, in ways that he couldn't quite pinpoint. junsu's words are helping to clear it up a little.
he's already touched starved. he wants junsu to kiss him and touch him. but even when junsu seemed willing, minsu couldn't believe that someone would want a monster like him touching them.
and that last statement reminds him even more of what he is, and he doesn't want to imagine meeting junsu somewhere like that, his easy smile and willingness, because minsu knows what he would've done next, how he smells so good that he might've tried to take advantage of it. it makes him blink against the tears that sting his eyes that want to fully form. he tries to think about something else - so he thinks about his curiosity.]
What...would you have done once we got there?