[ kwang being hurt is worse than the anger that could've been. junsu never meant to hurt him, he never thought they'd love each other like they do. he'd cozied up to kwang with the intent to be liked, to be protected, and instead he'd found someone with a kind and gentle heart who let him in and made him feel like a person with his own worth.
instead he'd found someone he found charming, funny, caring, someone he cared for just because he was glad kwang existed, that he got to know him, that he got to spend time with him.
it's his own fault, if he jeopardized that, if it's gone now. he asked for it. kwang should be angry.
junsu stares at his hands in his lap, silent as the tears keep rolling down his cheeks, not even looking up. what is there to say? there's no excusing it. all he can do is plead and hope kwang won't leave. if he leaves, it'll feel so final. and junsu will have to live knowing it was all his doing, that he ruined the good thing he had going, that his heart has been broken twice and this time he shattered it himself. ]
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instead he'd found someone he found charming, funny, caring, someone he cared for just because he was glad kwang existed, that he got to know him, that he got to spend time with him.
it's his own fault, if he jeopardized that, if it's gone now. he asked for it. kwang should be angry.
junsu stares at his hands in his lap, silent as the tears keep rolling down his cheeks, not even looking up. what is there to say? there's no excusing it. all he can do is plead and hope kwang won't leave. if he leaves, it'll feel so final. and junsu will have to live knowing it was all his doing, that he ruined the good thing he had going, that his heart has been broken twice and this time he shattered it himself. ]
Don't go...