[ he could feel kwang's heart getting quicker, had been curious and trying to run his hand up and down kwang's back.
when junsu hears the words, he freezes. shock, at first. then joy, because he hasn't heard those words said to him in a long, long time, and they mean so much, and if kwang loves him then this is special, as special as it feels, not just something in junsu's head.
he pulls away, wanting to look into kwang's face, eyes bright and excited, something joyful and happy in his face, his lips curving toward a smile.
a blink later and it's gone, fading into a frown. then his eyes fill with tears again. he was so happy for a moment and now his heart is shattering, and it's his own fault. he lied. he chose this. he did this. and he let kwang fall for him without knowing the truth, and that's so, so awful. ]
You — I don't think...
[ he takes in a deep, shaky breath. this might be it. kwang might hate him. kwang might take back the book and the necklace and himself and close all the doors. he wants to hope he won't, but he's too afraid to really believe it.
he's let this go on too long, though. if kwang loves him, he needs to know the real junsu. ]
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when junsu hears the words, he freezes. shock, at first. then joy, because he hasn't heard those words said to him in a long, long time, and they mean so much, and if kwang loves him then this is special, as special as it feels, not just something in junsu's head.
he pulls away, wanting to look into kwang's face, eyes bright and excited, something joyful and happy in his face, his lips curving toward a smile.
a blink later and it's gone, fading into a frown. then his eyes fill with tears again. he was so happy for a moment and now his heart is shattering, and it's his own fault. he lied. he chose this. he did this. and he let kwang fall for him without knowing the truth, and that's so, so awful. ]
You — I don't think...
[ he takes in a deep, shaky breath. this might be it. kwang might hate him. kwang might take back the book and the necklace and himself and close all the doors. he wants to hope he won't, but he's too afraid to really believe it.
he's let this go on too long, though. if kwang loves him, he needs to know the real junsu. ]
I'm not what you think I am.