[ he does ache for both of them. it's hard to protect kwang and defend him against this paint without slighting the other person he loves. he can't speak ill of hojoon like he could never speak ill of kwang. he doesn't even like it when anyone implies they're less than amazing in any way. ]

No one's fault. [ he rubs his hand up and down kwang's back again. it's so hard to know what to say. kwang deserves... so much. not this. but he deserves the kind of love that feels infinite and freely given. ]

You do deserve someone who could love you fully. Who doesn't think their love is in limited quantities. Even if that's not true, if that's how he feels... I don't want that for you. I don't want you to love someone who can't give you the same back.