[ A lot is coming out, just like that, the two of them sitting close in the treehouse, Kwang's little magical lights fluttering around them. So much is coming out, fears and worries and insecurities, and it feels - it feels reassuring, to be able to talk about it at all.
And it's reassuring, too, to hear Junsu say they'd talk. Kwang immediately relaxes, shoulders slumping a little, a tired, tiny smile appearing on his lips. At Junsu's next words, Kwang nods, his heart picking up speed at the mention of Ten. ]
That's - fair. That's more than fair. Lately, for me, it's only been you two, you know? Although I definitely like Bam a lot. But mostly, it's just been you two, and you've been more than enough for me.
[ It's not really something he thinks about that much. If he meets someone that does it for him, then fine, but he's not exactly searching for it, not when he is already so fulfilled.
Kwang wishes he could have reassured Junsu from the very beginning, but he knows things had to evolve the way they did - naturally, organically. They might have made mistakes in the way if they'd tried to go too fast. ]
It's not fucked up. I get it, and I wish I had known then that you felt this way. I knew there was... something, in the back of your mind, but I didn't want to rush. But I can protect more than one person at once if I need to. And you? From the moment I laid eyes on you for the first time, you were at the top of my list. And Ten, he just. He loves, very hard. And he thinks you're wonderful. Which is true, so I can't imagine you were that much of a dick to him. [ Kwang smiles a little bigger. ]
That's the thing, though, baby. I do want to give you everything. Absolutely everything, without reservations. I love you so much, you know?
[ It's utterly sincere, written all over Kwang's features, and in his voice too. He listens to what Junsu is saying, eyes taking him in, unable to move away, completely, entirely taken by how beautiful Junsu is, how soft his heart is. ]
Okay. Okay, then - I'm glad that you have him, too. I'm glad you don't get to feel this fear. But you know I'll drop everything to be there for you if you need me, right? Even if I'm with Ten, he would understand.
[ Kwang scoffs, amused, and waves a dismissive hand, before reaching for Junsu, tugging him closer, wanting them close, close, closer, wanting to feel all of Junsu pressed against him. ]
He's been fine. He's just - suspicious is a good word for it. I guess he sees me as competition, I guess, which is part of what worried me, but. To be fair to him, he's made an effort, to talk to me, and to be civil, if not outright friendly. So maybe we'll get there. You don't have to talk to him about me, I promise.
[ His smile slips away then, as he thinks back on what he is, what he does, what the wings do to him when he brings them out. ]
I'm not saying that to try and push you away. It's not that - I honestly don't know what I'd do without you in my life, at this point. It'd be like losing half of my heart, and I don't want that. I just - I just want you to know. There's a part of me that hates them, and there's a part of me that loves them, and there's a part of me that's seduced by what they can offer me. They're dangerous, for me, but also for you. So just - what I'm trying to say is stay vigilant, okay? If I'm ever acting unlike myself, in any way.
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And it's reassuring, too, to hear Junsu say they'd talk. Kwang immediately relaxes, shoulders slumping a little, a tired, tiny smile appearing on his lips. At Junsu's next words, Kwang nods, his heart picking up speed at the mention of Ten. ]
That's - fair. That's more than fair. Lately, for me, it's only been you two, you know? Although I definitely like Bam a lot. But mostly, it's just been you two, and you've been more than enough for me.
[ It's not really something he thinks about that much. If he meets someone that does it for him, then fine, but he's not exactly searching for it, not when he is already so fulfilled.
Kwang wishes he could have reassured Junsu from the very beginning, but he knows things had to evolve the way they did - naturally, organically. They might have made mistakes in the way if they'd tried to go too fast. ]
It's not fucked up. I get it, and I wish I had known then that you felt this way. I knew there was... something, in the back of your mind, but I didn't want to rush. But I can protect more than one person at once if I need to. And you? From the moment I laid eyes on you for the first time, you were at the top of my list. And Ten, he just. He loves, very hard. And he thinks you're wonderful. Which is true, so I can't imagine you were that much of a dick to him. [ Kwang smiles a little bigger. ]
That's the thing, though, baby. I do want to give you everything. Absolutely everything, without reservations. I love you so much, you know?
[ It's utterly sincere, written all over Kwang's features, and in his voice too. He listens to what Junsu is saying, eyes taking him in, unable to move away, completely, entirely taken by how beautiful Junsu is, how soft his heart is. ]
Okay. Okay, then - I'm glad that you have him, too. I'm glad you don't get to feel this fear. But you know I'll drop everything to be there for you if you need me, right? Even if I'm with Ten, he would understand.
[ Kwang scoffs, amused, and waves a dismissive hand, before reaching for Junsu, tugging him closer, wanting them close, close, closer, wanting to feel all of Junsu pressed against him. ]
He's been fine. He's just - suspicious is a good word for it. I guess he sees me as competition, I guess, which is part of what worried me, but. To be fair to him, he's made an effort, to talk to me, and to be civil, if not outright friendly. So maybe we'll get there. You don't have to talk to him about me, I promise.
[ His smile slips away then, as he thinks back on what he is, what he does, what the wings do to him when he brings them out. ]
I'm not saying that to try and push you away. It's not that - I honestly don't know what I'd do without you in my life, at this point. It'd be like losing half of my heart, and I don't want that. I just - I just want you to know. There's a part of me that hates them, and there's a part of me that loves them, and there's a part of me that's seduced by what they can offer me. They're dangerous, for me, but also for you. So just - what I'm trying to say is stay vigilant, okay? If I'm ever acting unlike myself, in any way.