[ The thing is that Ten received a similar promise, but while Kwang was under the influence of Halloween-themed candy drugs. Or something. So he's pretty sure it doesn't count, at all. He only vaguely remembers the conversation. Here, now, he's sober and he feels a little like walls that have been crumbling for a long time are finally giving up the ghost. ]

I guess what scares me, truly, is just. Losing you. I know that it isn't rational. I just worry that I don't give you as much attention and devotion as Hojoon does, or I don't reassure you enough that you matter so, so, so much to me. And that it'll make you choose him, at some point. And I know it's not rational because as I just said, it wouldn't even cross my mind to leave you, and when you make me look at it from your point of view, it seems ludicrous, but. I am not sure polyamory is something you're completely comfortable with, and thus, I worry.

[ He takes a deep breath, looking down. The flush in his cheeks is shame, more than anything else, at even thinking these thoughts. With anyone else, he'd be cool, and composed. But he loves Junsu in a way he can barely describe, and it makes him struggle with his words when he's unsure he's not making a mess of things. ]

I think part of it is due to - I don't quite understand my feelings about Hojoon. I want him to like me, and I'm worried he thinks I'm not good enough for you, and it will influence you in the long run.

And honestly, I'm probably not good enough for you. I was reminded of that when I showed you my wings. They're... they were created with so much evil, but so much power, and I know it can be corrupting. It scares me, how easy they could take me over.

[ He's mixing himself up, talking about too many things at once, too many things he's kept in for a while, never quite finding the right time to talk to Junsu about it, sort of worried he'd piss Junsu off with his insecurities. ]

Oh. Oh, that's - good. I like Hojoon, too. Even if I don't know if it's mutual.